I am Lilith

Fergie’s BLM aspects her Sun, Moon and Uranus. She’s one of our Lilith Goddesses…

I came here to get crazy

I was born to get wild, that’s my style

If you didn’t know that, well, baby, now you know now

-Fergie, Black Eyed Peas, The Dirty Bit

I was born free and I belong to no man. No man can own me or tame me but if you desire me, then engage me and if you have courage, follow me. I’m fun and danger and sporty mystique. I’m raunchy music and booze and smoke and late night sex.

I wield in my power openly and am spurned by humanity, I am sustained by my bond to the earth, my mother and to the sky, my father. I am the lone woman on the cliff with the wind blowing through her hair who exults in being alive. And when I come down from the top, will you have the courage to join me? Will you come with me into the night and take off everything and see how crazy we can get, how far we can push it?

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The Caduceus Cracked

He moves between heaven and earth

And even deeper into the shadowy realm

 

And I can work with him

And weave word spells

Or douse you in soft illusions

Or conjure a pun and amuse you.

 

 

I can work with him

And do all of that

But I cannot write anything

That will delete the pain from our hearts.

 

There is no quick fix

No magical chant

No spell, no verse ever written

No prose to soak up our pain.

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Saturn’s Sojourn Through Scorpio

Who were we kidding

Thinking we’d get intimacy

As easily as painting our lips

And setting forth for the bright lights?

Who did we meet but others

Wearing too much cologne

And hiding a lack of heart

Beneath suave charm?

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Unrequited Love: A Fifth House Tale

I see your Ascendant

Progress

And kiss your Venus

 

And quietly shed

Soul tears

Because it’s not me.

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A Love Poem for Sagittarius

 

 

 

 

 

 

I watch you as you go

As you run, glide, slide

And fly away

To find purple mountains of glory.

 

I stand here still, quiet, alone

Aching a little

Smiling a little

I stay and I watch you leave.

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Neptune: Falling in Love with Archetypes

Projecting on movie stars. (Gulshan Devaiya, in “Hate Story”)

This what I’ve been thinking and perhaps others have written about it before or perhaps what I’m writing here is not quite correct. I certainly haven’t thought about it for very long or done much research on it. It’s about Neptunians, really. People with Pisces strong or Neptune much aspected. Especially with personal planets. And Neptune with Venus if you’re narrowing in on romantic love.

I was listening to a Howard Sasportas lecture on Venus (UAC 1992) and he was talking about the trials that people with Venus squaring Neptune go through. Can’t be very easy if you have Venus opposing or conjunct the planet of illusions and illumination either.

And this is what I think: Neptunians fall in love with archetypes. I’m not using the word “archetype” in any strict sense with reference to Jung unless I am doing so inadvertently. What I mean by it is concepts we hold like: hero, victim, genius, mover-and-shaker. Feel free to add more.

It makes sense that Neptune is associated with celluloid. Because in movies we see these archetypes clearly defined, they come alive for us. Is it any wonder we fall in love with movie stars? They’re such a perfect hook for our projections.

I suspect Neptunians project more than other people and on more people. Because Neptunians see archetypes. It’s not always easy for them to see people as flesh-and-blood mostly un-glamorous beings, no matter how rich or talented or how victimized and misunderstood.  Neptune has no boundaries and what happens when you put the planet of romance with this planet that knows no bounds? It isn’t easy to love the way Neptune wants us to, to love all there is, all there are, unconditionally. It messes with one’s mind or do I mean heart? So you see Neptunians caught up in impossible situations with impossible people and happy-and-miserable at the same time; stumbling around in a weepy daze in this very limited and limiting space-time continuum reading and writing poems, watching or creating movies, reading stories and living out their own.

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Skyfall: Scorpio and Resurrection aka “I’m back, be very afraid.”

It’s a day after transiting Sun went over Saturn in Scorpio. How did you feel? I remember reading that this transit would give us good idea of how Saturn’s passage in the sign of the Scorpion was going to be like. While no transit of Saturn is ever a party, in this sign it is going to feel intense. Of course. The next two years or so also have the north node passing through Scorpio and if your natal north node is there, you’re up for your nodal return.  A life changing transit this. But more on this Saturn transit and the nodal returns later. Those are posts in themselves.

On a (questionably) lighter note, I just saw the trailer for the new Bond movie: Skyfall. It was first released in the UK on 23 Oct 2012, the day the Sun swam into the deep still waters of Scorpio. I haven’t watched the movie yet, but the trailer dialogues are very Scorpionic:

M: Where the hell have you been?

Bond: Enjoying death.

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The Heartache of Mutable Signs in 2012

Neptune swam into Pisces in April 2011 and then retreated into Aquarius in August. It moved into Pisces for a long stay in early February 2012 and will move back and forth over the first three degrees of the sign of the Fish till March 2013.  Chiron moved into Pisces in February 2011 and will go back and forth over the first 10 or so degrees till the end of 2013.

If you have planets in the first 10 degrees of the Pisces, Gemini, Virgo or Sagittarius or have your Sun early on in these signs, I dare say you have felt these transits. I was thinking earlier that Neptune makes promises it does not keep and thus causes a sense of disillusionment and loss. And what do you get when Chiron, the Wounded Healer, works on your chart? Great pain that needs healing.

I see the movement of Neptune and Chiron in the early degrees of Pisces as a great testing time for the mutable signs. A time of loss, pain, disillusionment, sacrifice and devotion; a time when many tears are shed. Your life could be going along nicely, or maybe not so nicely, and then these two come along and then you know what real grief and loss are. And that life is indeed so much bigger than you. A force you cannot control and what the Buddha says comes to mind, “Life is suffering.”

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Pluto square Pluto by Transit

There are some posts you almost don’t write because you’re not ready yet to write such things. But you’re in the process of getting there, so you take your The Book of Pluto by Steven Forrest and Predictive Astrology Bernadette Brady and create a DIY post you hope will be helpful to those reading it.

This post is the promised sequel to my February post: Pluto in Libra Generation: Living Happily Ever After. In this post, I’m going to focus specifically on the Pluto square this generation is experiencing since Pluto’s ingress into Capricorn in January, 2008. The mills of God and Pluto grind slow but grind exceedingly small. Pluto stays in Capricorn till March, 2023. And during this period of 15 years, it will have squared itself in the charts of everyone who was born with Pluto in Libra.

Steven Forrest says that a well-lived Pluto in your chart gives you the great gift of feeling your life to be meaningful. But if you do not work with your Pluto, do not honor its call, do not pay its price; the bleakness of life will get you. You will be enfolded by that worst feeling of all: the feeling of your life being without meaning. It’s a great insight and I have found it to be true. He’s a great teacher and you really must get that book I mentioned earlier if you are working with Pluto or trying to understand it in charts.

Steve talks about Pluto’s square to itself by transit as a time when your beliefs are questioned.  When things you have always taken for granted come up for examination vis-à-vis their meaningfulness in life.  This examination may cause you to change your beliefs. And that is a deep thing because our beliefs are what determine our choices and actions and it is these choices and actions that form our life. So basically, when you’re faced with this square, you’re in the process of transforming your life.

The transformation is going to come whether you like it or not. And since it is a square, you probably aren’t going to like it very much. I see the Pluto square activating when you find yourself face down in the carpet weeping, “Why me?” When you hold on to what is not been working for you, not wanting thing to change and appealing to God saying, “Please help me. Please fix this.”

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Can’t Get Away from Polarity

Polarities Matter

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Can’t think of one without the other
Can’t have Pisces without talking about Virgo

If Aries is me, I have to think of you
And you is Libra

If  Taurus is the sensory, we have to think of Scorpio
Of the psychological too

If Gemini is information
We have to think of principals, of Sagittarius

The home is in Cancer, but we have to go out into the world
of Capricorn to earn that bread

Your selfhood is aglow in Leo
But the group matters, too, teaches Aquarius

Pisces might be all about the soul
But your body is matter, politely points out Virgo.

They told us that the cardinal T-Square would be tough. It was. We know this because we lived through 2010 and 2011. But I quite like 2012. It could be Neptune’s ingress into Pisces: surrender to a higher power. Or it could be just psychological exhaustion: Yeah, I’m beat and I’m lying here, face down in the carpet. I accept, I accept. Funny thing about acceptance, it makes happiness sneak around and sit in your lap again. I don’t mean giving up on things without a fight. I mean an intelligent surrender to forces bigger than you, to reality, to what cannot be changed.

So, I like this Neptune ingress into the sign of the Fish. One of its meanings could be recognizing higher powers that are around us. A divine design if you will. And connecting to it. I think that’s important. It gives meaning to suffering, patience to endurance and it is the triumph of sacrifice. Neptune rules addiction and I heard Steven Forrest say in a recorded lecture that addiction is born because of a feeling of separateness. It’s a wanting to connect, a longing for the divine home where you will always be safe, always loved.

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