Posts Tagged ‘Astrology’

Behold! Here are the darker shades of love
Here there is no harmony
Blanketed by the wings of a dove.

Here there is concentrated hate
Potently, poetically mixed
With this flagrant need to mate.

Here there is the desire to give pain
To hurt, to rent , to tear, to scratch
And then count every wound given a gain.

Here there is a roaring rage
I’m quite surprised
It’s not burning up this page!

Here there is the nothingness of grief
It was so little joy
Not even the memories bring relief.

Here is the rot of passion gone bad
Look closely and you will see
Beneath the mask, a face that is so sad.

Here is the madness that wants to kill
Shattered and shattering
A bitter destiny to fulfill.

Here is the dark moonless night of the heart
Alone, lonely shadow: it wanders in circles
Without an end, without a start.

We will leave it now with this, this our blessing,
And as we go away, we go away gently hoping
That it found some comfort in its anguished confessing.

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I’ve been reading Annie’s Blog over at CafeAstrology Relationships, and one of her posts talks about people who can’t relate to some aspects of their charts. It made me realize that it isn’t just Walt Whitman who contained “multitudes.” All of us do. And dealing with these widely different aspects of our spirit is bewildering for people around us. I don’t know about you, but I’ve found it quite difficult to make peace with contradictions that I find within myself.

I have a hard Venus-Neptune aspect and it has brought me much grief in matters connected with romantic love. I used to fall in love, at the drop of a hat, with suitably unavailable people. They had to be unavailable, otherwise how could my long-suffering square build romantic fancies around them? “I don’t do reality, sorry, dude! If I know you really well, see you all the time…gosh, see you as a human being with flaws, how can I be in love with you? You’ve got to be this distant figure, so that I can day dream about you; create you in an image that pleases my changing fancy. Then, I can be in love you.” Say hello, folks, you’ve just met the manifestation of my Venus-Neptune’s past way of interacting with the world.

It must have been because transiting Saturn has just finished crushing my ditzy Venus that I’ve finally been able to understand and deal with this tendency. Now, I’m aware of the fact that I will “fall in love” many times more in this lifetime. But now I also know that it’s probably a passing fancy; that if I pine for someone, it’s because my psychological makeup has a need to pine. And that it’s all right. Since I’m blessed (ha!) with a square, I channel a lot of it into writing poems. While they might have dubious poetic merit, I love to rhyme. Writing poetry purges my heart and my soul. 

On a related note, while some people have staunch fans, I have a rather staunch critic. At most, he will say a poem I’m glowing about is “okay.” More often, he will label them “mediocre.” Ordinarily, that would kill the gentle Neptunian spirit. But I also have a kickass Mars-Sun-Moon T-Square in the fixed signs and I am not easily daunted. Criticism encourages me, in fact. If I have something to fight against, it energizes me. Having Mars conjunct my south node, I sometimes wonder if I was a warrior in my past life. 

I’m as likely to weep over someone’s heartache as I am to pick a fight with anyone I perceive as a bully. If you need help, you can always call on the Neptune in me; but if you work for me and are goofing off when things need to be done, you will rouse my Mars and be sorry that you did so. If you don’t know me well, you will probably see only one aspect of me, depending on the situational context. But if you are close to me, you will encounter all of them: the pretty pastels of Neptune’s kindness, the lurid reds of Mars’ anger, the in-your-face chartreuses of my T-Squares, the serene blues of my trined Jupiter and the scintillating yellows of a progressed planet in Gemini.

It’s a colorful picture, to be sure, but it used to leave me wondering who I really was. If you are being one thing, does that mean you are faking it when you are being another? Of course, it doesn’t. But the challenge lies in reconciling these contradictory faces of our soul into a harmonious whole. And we need this reconciliation if we want inner peace and peace in our relationships.

Personally, I feel the world needs them all: warriors and poets, intellectual and dreamers, thinkers and doers, writers and readers, materialists and spiritualists. Chances are, you typify several of these archetypes. Your chart is both the map of your unconsciousness and a mirror of your objective sense of self. Whether you are struggling with issues that connect only with your sense of self or with problems in your relationship to the outside world, it helps to look at the chart and capture its harmonious and disharmonies notes in a melody that is uniquely you. Go ahead, try it. Easy access to self-understanding and healing is one of the finest gifts that astrology has given us.

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This morning, I read Petros Eleftheriadis’s blog entry about the hard time an astrologer had on Penn & Teller’s show. I saw a clip of it myself and it hurt to see the astrologer trying to figure out a career for this woman whose chart he was reading. I think the planet, or rather, the luminary he was looking at was the moon. As we all know, the moon rules a variety of careers and he listed them all out. The lady said later on that he mentioned almost everything under the sun and was bound to get something right.

But that’s just the thing, a planet can have various fields of activity under its domain. Take Jupiter: If it is connected with your tenth house you could be involved with anything from organized religion to publishing (books, not newspapers or magazines), to work connected with foreign travel or the law. To the astrologically uninitiated, it looks like a long list and since they can’t see the connection to Jupiter, it looks like the astrologer is wildly throwing these options around.

What Mr. Eleftheriadis says on his blog is that astrologers shouldn’t force themselves to find answers to all questions when they look at a chart nor try and find astrological evidence in the chart for everything they see. Donning the mantle of omniscience does more harm than good. This was brought home to me a while back when I was looking at an event chart and could find no obvious astrological markers for it in its chart. While this is more indicative of the gaps in my astrological knowledge than anything else, I still felt intensely frustrated when I didn’t see what I expected to see. I’ve saved the data for another look and will return to it with an open mind after a few days.

On a related note, I’ve been assigning myself astrological homework. I have the option of looking at friends’ charts or the charts of merest acquaintances. I’ve been wondering whether it is best to do a stranger’s chart while you’re learning. Because with people you know really well, you already know the issues that plague their lives. Like my friend whose financial situation is always unstable because of her spouse’s rather erratic career history. She has Saturn in the second house, squaring Uranus exactly, to the minute! Aquarius is intercepted in the eight: I’m taking Aquarius as her husband’s income. The Saturn indicates her money worries and the square tells us that the husband will sometimes be a source of added income and sometimes not bring in anything to their joint finances.

I only saw the above aspect because this theme was playing out very big in her life recently. But you see what I mean? If you had just plunked her chart before me, would I have seen it? But that square is kind of hard to miss. Anyway, I worry about stuff like this especially since I’ve put my homework on hold: to be or not to be. To read a stranger’s chart or read a friend’s? Paralysis. Haven’t looked at any chart at all as a result.

April Elliott Kent says something very useful about this in her post Constructing an Astrology Reading. She advises that you learn about your client’s “non-astrological reality” before doing a reading. It helps you organize your work better and adds value to the consultation. What I got from this was that one does not have to work blind and figure out everything just by looking at the chart. Have you read her post? You should, I’ve linked it, check it out.

One of the things that astrology needs quite badly right now is credibility. I think astrologers educating the general public about astrology and its limitations will help. If you are an astrologer who’s reading this, how many times have people asked you to guess their sun sign, even if you’ve just met them? Yeah, I know. Someone needs to educate the masses: Why can’t that someone be you? And why not start with the next person who wants you to guess their “star” (sun, SUN sign, O ignorant wretch! Star Signs is another book that Linda Goodman wrote!) sign?

Oh, and about that event chart I mentioned, I suspect that Aquarius on the eleventh house explains quite a lot!


P.S. Here’s a great post along similar lines: http://nononsenseastrology.com/?p=2395

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