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Do you have natal Neptune aspecting any of your personal planets in your chart? Or, since transiting Neptune is at 26 degree of Aquarius right now, do you have any personal planets in the last 10 degrees of the fixed signs? If you do, has deception been a theme in your life? Because, among other things, Neptune rules deceit and self-deception.

Not that Neptunians mind being deceived or, on some occasions, deceiving others. Deceit with Neptune and Pisces is not a focused, cold strategic ploy like it would be with Scorpio or Capricorn if they chose to walk on the dark side. It’s usually something they drift into because they want to help someone, spare someone’s feelings or prevent others from looking too deeply into their rather messy minds. And their minds are a bit messy because they knit all these fantasies around what’s happening: there’s that pink thread for how they want to see things, the lilac for how they wish things were, the yellow for Pollyanna optimism, the white is there representing what they’ve convinced themselves is the truth, the black for the blinkers that make them feel safe, the gray for the polite mask they are loathe to remove. So what is the truth?  Who knows? They certainly don’t after a while. 

They’re like a cute little kitten playing with balls of yarn. Except they tend to get rather badly trapped in all those threads and then mew piteously for someone (usually God and the Universe) to get them out of the colorful web of truth, half-truths and outright lies.

I’ve been so busy looking at other people’s charts in the recent past that I haven’t looked at mine at all and have rather belatedly realized that if transiting Neptune moves one degree forward, it will exactly square my moon. The aspect is almost as good as exact. What brought my attention swinging to this was the fact that I’ve been feeling very deceived by people I’m fond of. These include the people who work in my home. Things keep disappearing and mostly I’m okay with it. They way I it figure is, they wouldn’t steal if they didn’t need it so badly. So I’ve been tacitly aiding and abetting this by pretending not to notice. But I’m married to a Scorpio: you ever tried pulling a fast one on them?

I’m fine with someone taking from me as long as they are subtle about it and leave enough for me. But my domestic pilferer has become bold and sh*t has hit the fan. So, we’re all in deep disgrace with the grim Scorpion. An unpleasant situation for all of us. So what’s the point of this very Neptunian rambling? It was all my fault! Instead of letting it slide, I should have nipped it in the bud. There are other ways of helping people instead of teaching them “theft is good and theft is fine and your chicken tastes so great.”

I know, I know. It looks bad for me. So I’ve been thinking about what to do, how to deal with things like this. And so if you’re a fish or strongly Neptune-ruled, listen up. Purity of intent. That’s a sure-fire antidote to this Neptunian fog. Just be clear about what you’re doing and why you’re doing it and for God’s sake, be honest and allow others to be honest. And instead of going all hazy-eyed when someone is lying to you, just say (gently, softly, politely like you prefer), “I smell something fishy here.” And if you can do that, demand the truth from yourself and from others, then you can have a nice old game with balls of yarn without becoming disastrously trapped.

So, there, I’m all done. A stern talking to was needed: check. A good look in the mirror: check. But, really, we’re not that messed up, are we? Since I’m a fellow Neptunian like you, we might have a hard time being objective about ourselves and may keep wondering why people look at us with thinly veiled pity. So sometimes, another perspective doesn’t hurt. Why not ask those clear-eyed Virgos what they think or, better yet, let Matthew Currie tell you: http://matthewastrology.blogspot.com/2009/06/pisces-shamwow-of-zodiac.html

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