You made it
You won every battle
And we both
lost the war.
You made it
You won every battle
And we both
lost the war.
It wasn’t that late, but it was late. I was out to work up some sweat. It’s safe enough in my street but once I step out, the safety zone ends. There is a dark part of the road to navigate, a big ditch to avoid, ensuring you are not run over by passing traffic (the dark stretch is also narrow) and then there are lights but there are also so many men.
Half of them are security guards, but uniforms or not, they are men. Others are just men out for smoke breaks. Innocuous men, preoccupied men, creepy men, attractive men. It’s an environment that automatically makes you hypervigilant if you are a woman. And like most women, I’m very good at automatically scanning my environment covertly and move accordingly.
But at one point this evening, from the other side of the road and away from all the men, I scanned it openly. And I was reminded of TV shows body guards. You know those guys in black suits with dark glasses (if you are the American president) or dressed more casually if you are Maria Carey whose eyes are always peeled, looking everywhere, looking for danger. That, I thought, is the Scorpio Moon, That image of someone scanning the environment for threats. Dark glasses optional. Continue Reading »
“I had the time of my life
And I never felt this way before
And I swear this is true and I owe it all to you.”
It encases your soul, your heart, your mind. Your body exalts when the breeze plays over your face and streams gently through your hair. It sings in quiet celebration when you entwine with the one you love. The gift of the senses: to smell, to taste, to feel, to touch, to hear. Your eyes through which your soul glows also receive the beauty of orange dawns that break in the east and the lilac sunsets that spill their heart on the horizon.
And when you love your body, when you hydrate it, feed it almonds and fruit and stretch it gently, slowly, just a little bit more in a yoga stretch and then release…you feel the body joy of a body that you have loved and that love is its own reward. Continue Reading »
Meet and part
Meet and part
It’s torn my heart apart
The jagged thunder of the thrill
Has left my sky in shreds
The clouds are weeping
And rainbows are shattered Continue Reading »
I have a ninth house moon and north node and the quest for personal meaning is very important to me. I’ve been reading Jeff Brown’s extraordinary book, Soulshaping, and the author states meaning is essential in every one’s life.
Life is fleeting and once that realization fully dawns one’s quest for meaning becomes very intense. Anything can trigger that bone deep realization: being close to death, falling in love, having a child or even wanting to realize a dream.
But it’s not just life-changing events that lead us to ask searching questions and explore our hearts; a life turned dull will do it. When I am with 20 somethings who have so many desires and limited means, I always tell them, “The money will come.” It does, too. Look at people in their 30s. Hard work, expertise and persistence pays off and they have the affluent and well organized lives they wanted. But with this comes curtailed freedom, ever growing responsibilities, stress and a dearth of time. The song that sings in younger hearts gets muted and as we age, we are perpetually running on the proverbial hamster wheel: making more materialistically and yet feeling a growing sense of dissatisfaction.
Assuredly it doesn’t happen to everyone because there are those people who seem to have a perpetual glow, an unlimited fund of energy and enthusiasm for their work and their lives whether they are 30, 40, 50 or 60. And there are others whose lives are criss-crossed by boredom and stress followed by binges or anything that perpetuates a peak experience. But the peak experiences are rare and most of life just seems mundane, dull, without luster. A meaningless exercise in fact.
So what’s going on? Losing touch with the soul purpose. When you’re in touch with your soul purpose and keep it in the forefront of your consciousness, your life becomes magical, meaningful, delightful. And you can experience it anywhere, anytime, no matter what you do or who you are.
Although there are sets of activities (or occupations) that are associated with different signs, what is even more important is our stance towards life. The signs that are predominant in your chart hold the key. You can read the below for your sun, moon and ascendant. And if you’re familiar with astrology or your chart and know the key astrological themes that operate for you, read for those.
These are small reminders or mantras that’ll reconnect you with your soul purpose. They’ll align you with the reason for your incarnated and once that alignment happens, life becomes enchanting.
Aries: I am the new, the birth. I am spring. I am vigor and courage. And everywhere I go I bring courage. I am the pioneer. I am here to overcome obstacles and this is my gift to every situation and to the people I meet.
Taurus: I am stability and safety and comfort. I am endurance and persistence. I am of the earth and I am here to participate in its bounty. I remind others by my presence of these things and I stabilize everything I touch, everyone I meet. This is my gift to the world at every moment of my life.
Gemini: I am curiosity and mental engagement. I am a love for language and words. I am the eye that notices every shine and sheen and follows it. I am the spirit seeking to learn and explore the world around it. In every moment, with every one I meet, I give the gift of my verbal dexterity and the unending charm of a mind that never loses its yearning for more and that stays forever young. Continue Reading »
I came here to get crazy
I was born to get wild, that’s my style
If you didn’t know that, well, baby, now you know now
-Fergie, Black Eyed Peas, The Dirty Bit
I was born free and I belong to no man. No man can own me or tame me but if you desire me, then engage me and if you have courage, follow me. I’m fun and danger and sporty mystique. I’m raunchy music and booze and smoke and late night sex.
I wield in my power openly and am spurned by humanity, I am sustained by my bond to the earth, my mother and to the sky, my father. I am the lone woman on the cliff with the wind blowing through her hair who exults in being alive. And when I come down from the top, will you have the courage to join me? Will you come with me into the night and take off everything and see how crazy we can get, how far we can push it? Continue Reading »
He moves between heaven and earth
And even deeper into the shadowy realm
And I can work with him
And weave word spells
Or douse you in soft illusions
Or conjure a pun and amuse you.
I can work with him
And do all of that
But I cannot write anything
That will delete the pain from our hearts.
There is no quick fix
No magical chant
No spell, no verse ever written
No prose to soak up our pain. Continue Reading »